Friday Nite can't wait for bedtime. Brad came home at 4pm. He had been working solid all week pretty near. Long drives and hard work in the cold outside.
Today I spoke with Scott Pepen the director of the Mental Health Centre that I go to. He had talked to Mary and she mentioned it to him. He seemed like a nice guy and asked if he could call me back if needed. I told him yes.
I did mega housework today, got my painting done yesterday, it looks not back for my very first one.
I think this weekend we will go get another one to work on. I only do them when Brad is at work.
And this week I had a lot of time with nobody here. Well my cats were here too.
Time to go I am just too tired tonight.
Friday, 31 January 2014
Thursday, 30 January 2014
Well it looks like me and the cat's again tonight. I finished my painting today, but I think I might do some minor changes on it tonight. Not feeling very well today, I think it was my conversation with my Mother. I talked to Dad first and he said Mum was having a bad day with her memory. When I talked on the phone it was so sad, she didn't really know anything she was talking about. Very much all over the map.
So the big news today, Justine Beiber charged in Toronto last night. He was charged last week in Miami, and has a pending investigation with his neighbour. Group was ok this week I was very tired I think I dosed off a few times.
So the big news today, Justine Beiber charged in Toronto last night. He was charged last week in Miami, and has a pending investigation with his neighbour. Group was ok this week I was very tired I think I dosed off a few times.
Wednesday, 29 January 2014
Well Jaimee and Sam arrived last night from Las Vegas. They really enjoyed their time there and are starting already to plan the next holiday. Too be young and carefree with no children yet.
I called Scott Pepin the Director, but he is on holidays till Jan. 28 either way I left him a message.
Brad came in around 8am from working. I will wake him to take me to my appointment.
We must have had another 5-6 inches of snow fall last night. This has been the worst year for cold, snow and ice. Atlanta is stormed under, the interstate is all blocked off and people are staying overnight in Home Depot and other locations. Today the fight is between the Governor and Mayor as to who is responsible.
My cat Vista is doing well up to all sorts of tricks, Amigo doesn't do tricks he just lays where he is.
I haven't heard from my Grandson Ben in a while I think I will call him later. I spoke with Dianne yesterday. She is being used by her family again for her having to look after her older brother Bryan who should get a good kick in the ass and sent to the street or go live with his son or daughter.
My Mum comes home from the hospital today, she has been there since Jan 2. I hope it works out for her and dad. Dad talked a long time on the phone last night and even stated how he feels that Mum is a Saint for putting up with stuff, she really is she would never say anything bad about anyone.
I will probably chat more after my group. This is suppose to be funny but it isn't turning out that way.
I called Scott Pepin the Director, but he is on holidays till Jan. 28 either way I left him a message.
Brad came in around 8am from working. I will wake him to take me to my appointment.
We must have had another 5-6 inches of snow fall last night. This has been the worst year for cold, snow and ice. Atlanta is stormed under, the interstate is all blocked off and people are staying overnight in Home Depot and other locations. Today the fight is between the Governor and Mayor as to who is responsible.
My cat Vista is doing well up to all sorts of tricks, Amigo doesn't do tricks he just lays where he is.
I haven't heard from my Grandson Ben in a while I think I will call him later. I spoke with Dianne yesterday. She is being used by her family again for her having to look after her older brother Bryan who should get a good kick in the ass and sent to the street or go live with his son or daughter.
My Mum comes home from the hospital today, she has been there since Jan 2. I hope it works out for her and dad. Dad talked a long time on the phone last night and even stated how he feels that Mum is a Saint for putting up with stuff, she really is she would never say anything bad about anyone.
I will probably chat more after my group. This is suppose to be funny but it isn't turning out that way.
Sunday, 26 January 2014
Saturday, 25 January 2014
Well it has been a few days since writing. I am still very miffed with that new doctor.
Was also disappointed with my sister Patti's response. She called to ask how it went, so I told her, and yet at the end was just silence this really pissed me off. I felt her silence scream at me as if she too felt the same way as this doctor. I wonder how she would feel if I told her he also mentioned she does not need disability and 2 workers helping her out.
I really want to talk to my dad about it but Patti will find out and say I was complaining to him and that I shouldn't do that. Only because Patti will hear about it from Dad. Doug (my brother) is having some good days but more bad days. He has finished his Chemo and Radiation, now they will measure the cancer to see about his surgery. He is eating better since they gave him something to coat his throat to get food down.
I am feeling kinda sorry for myself I guess. Time to shake it off. I just HATE when people say they know how you feel and they couldn't possible know the crap that keeps going on inside of me.
Even Brad can't figure me out, they think they do but they don't. That is why I felt the way I did a couple of months ago. When I was totally out of it. It felt really good, I had no worries, no one yammering at me and just no cares, till I woke back up. No it feels like reality sinks back in.
Don't hear from Diane much anymore, which maybe a good thing. Have been communicating with Malle again. I really miss her since we moved from Kitchener.
Today I had 200.00 each ticket to go see Les Mis in Toronto. It is my favourite and the kids got us this for Christmas. The snow storm was so bad you couldn't go down the 401 hwy. Brad had a friend at work Daniel and he took his Mother he called after seeing it and said they really enjoyed it and the seats were great. Well enough for Saturday I will get back to my hockey game and hope the Leafs can take tonight.
Was also disappointed with my sister Patti's response. She called to ask how it went, so I told her, and yet at the end was just silence this really pissed me off. I felt her silence scream at me as if she too felt the same way as this doctor. I wonder how she would feel if I told her he also mentioned she does not need disability and 2 workers helping her out.
I really want to talk to my dad about it but Patti will find out and say I was complaining to him and that I shouldn't do that. Only because Patti will hear about it from Dad. Doug (my brother) is having some good days but more bad days. He has finished his Chemo and Radiation, now they will measure the cancer to see about his surgery. He is eating better since they gave him something to coat his throat to get food down.
I am feeling kinda sorry for myself I guess. Time to shake it off. I just HATE when people say they know how you feel and they couldn't possible know the crap that keeps going on inside of me.
Even Brad can't figure me out, they think they do but they don't. That is why I felt the way I did a couple of months ago. When I was totally out of it. It felt really good, I had no worries, no one yammering at me and just no cares, till I woke back up. No it feels like reality sinks back in.
Don't hear from Diane much anymore, which maybe a good thing. Have been communicating with Malle again. I really miss her since we moved from Kitchener.
Today I had 200.00 each ticket to go see Les Mis in Toronto. It is my favourite and the kids got us this for Christmas. The snow storm was so bad you couldn't go down the 401 hwy. Brad had a friend at work Daniel and he took his Mother he called after seeing it and said they really enjoyed it and the seats were great. Well enough for Saturday I will get back to my hockey game and hope the Leafs can take tonight.
Thursday, 23 January 2014
January 23, 2014
Monday started out looking very promising. I chatted with Ryan on the phone and wished him a Happy Birthday. We didn't talk to long cuz he was at work. In the afternoon I had an appointment with a new Doctor I was really looking forward to. Someone that monitored my meds rather than just write new ones. My Dad drove me there and waited while I went in. It was a disaster from the beginning. He First asked if I was gay? Then asked if I had been with a lesbian? I had no idea why he asked these questions and what he was going to say next. He disagreed with all the specialist in London Regional Mental Health Hospital. I told him I was there for 4 months and he laughed and said they would never keep me that long only up to 8 weeks. He disagreed with everything I said and I just couldn't wait to get out of there. I told him my Mother was in hospital for a kidney infection and he argued that saying it was dpi. He has no clue who my mother is. He argued everything I said. He had me so worked up, I was crying all the time. He said he may not approve me to be his patient and that maybe I should stay with Dr. Carlyle cuz he knows my meds. He stated that he would take me off all my medication and send me to work. He would cut my disability, and wouldn't believe I don't know where my funds come from Brad says my pension. The cheques just get deposited I don't see any paper work. He didn't believe anything I said. He kept going between one hospital stay compared to other hospital stays. He had my mind so confused I couldn't think of what medications I
was taking. Hew told me it would take 5-7 yrs for him to know me??????
Anyways it was an absolute mess, my dad was very concerned but I told him I would manage. He dropped me off at home I took one of my larazapams and laid down in bed till Brad came home.
Monday started out looking very promising. I chatted with Ryan on the phone and wished him a Happy Birthday. We didn't talk to long cuz he was at work. In the afternoon I had an appointment with a new Doctor I was really looking forward to. Someone that monitored my meds rather than just write new ones. My Dad drove me there and waited while I went in. It was a disaster from the beginning. He First asked if I was gay? Then asked if I had been with a lesbian? I had no idea why he asked these questions and what he was going to say next. He disagreed with all the specialist in London Regional Mental Health Hospital. I told him I was there for 4 months and he laughed and said they would never keep me that long only up to 8 weeks. He disagreed with everything I said and I just couldn't wait to get out of there. I told him my Mother was in hospital for a kidney infection and he argued that saying it was dpi. He has no clue who my mother is. He argued everything I said. He had me so worked up, I was crying all the time. He said he may not approve me to be his patient and that maybe I should stay with Dr. Carlyle cuz he knows my meds. He stated that he would take me off all my medication and send me to work. He would cut my disability, and wouldn't believe I don't know where my funds come from Brad says my pension. The cheques just get deposited I don't see any paper work. He didn't believe anything I said. He kept going between one hospital stay compared to other hospital stays. He had my mind so confused I couldn't think of what medications I
was taking. Hew told me it would take 5-7 yrs for him to know me??????
Anyways it was an absolute mess, my dad was very concerned but I told him I would manage. He dropped me off at home I took one of my larazapams and laid down in bed till Brad came home.
Sunday, 19 January 2014
Today is January 16, gosh I hope I remember Ryan's Bday on the 20th it is easy to forget so close to just finishing Christmas.
Well I am starting my Blog today. Please bare with me as I have no clue what to do. I am going to let you into a little bit of something everyday. You choose whether to read it or not.
Things that amused me today. I saw a quite elderly gentlemen driving his car down the sidewalk. All I could do is laugh, he probably has cheaper car insurance than I do.
You know I just realized how sick my whole family is. I would mention more but they would kill me. Let's just say some sick with alcohol, some more serious that they struggle everyday for relief to walk, breathe etc.
I think I have finally lost ties with a friend that I was very close to over the years. You ever have a friend that you did everything to make her life better and happier. But the one time I could have really used her for support, she bails. left many messages and nothing in return. Oh well as she is fond of saying "Shit happens"
Brad's job keeps him away from home quite a bit. He leaves here at 5:30 am to work in Toronto comes home between 7-8 lot's of the time. So it is just me and my cats at home. I hate to cook supper, because I like to eat at 5 and he comes in around 7:30 and I have to either heat up cold food or find something for him. Sometimes I just eat a sandwich or salad. and have to prep a meal at 7:30.
Well I am starting my Blog today. Please bare with me as I have no clue what to do. I am going to let you into a little bit of something everyday. You choose whether to read it or not.
Things that amused me today. I saw a quite elderly gentlemen driving his car down the sidewalk. All I could do is laugh, he probably has cheaper car insurance than I do.
You know I just realized how sick my whole family is. I would mention more but they would kill me. Let's just say some sick with alcohol, some more serious that they struggle everyday for relief to walk, breathe etc.
I think I have finally lost ties with a friend that I was very close to over the years. You ever have a friend that you did everything to make her life better and happier. But the one time I could have really used her for support, she bails. left many messages and nothing in return. Oh well as she is fond of saying "Shit happens"
Brad's job keeps him away from home quite a bit. He leaves here at 5:30 am to work in Toronto comes home between 7-8 lot's of the time. So it is just me and my cats at home. I hate to cook supper, because I like to eat at 5 and he comes in around 7:30 and I have to either heat up cold food or find something for him. Sometimes I just eat a sandwich or salad. and have to prep a meal at 7:30.
January 19/14
Wow! is it ever snowy and windy and totally cold out today. Getting ready for my favourite football team "Bronco's" to start at 3 pm. They will be playing the "Patriots" so this is one match I have been waiting for, for a long time. Jaimee & Sam went off to work this morning said they were coming back tonight for supper and stay over. But I don't think they will head out of Peterborough in this weather. Cats are all curled up and sleeping, I just got up from my nap and waiting for the clock to tick down to 3pm. Listening to Imagine Dragons with the head phones on, while Brad is on his computer playing Suduko.
Ben's first snowman this year, love the parsley hair....
Wow! is it ever snowy and windy and totally cold out today. Getting ready for my favourite football team "Bronco's" to start at 3 pm. They will be playing the "Patriots" so this is one match I have been waiting for, for a long time. Jaimee & Sam went off to work this morning said they were coming back tonight for supper and stay over. But I don't think they will head out of Peterborough in this weather. Cats are all curled up and sleeping, I just got up from my nap and waiting for the clock to tick down to 3pm. Listening to Imagine Dragons with the head phones on, while Brad is on his computer playing Suduko.
Ben's first snowman this year, love the parsley hair....
January 19/13 (Sunday)
Went to Michael's yesterday with Brad, we had a great time there looking for ideas.
I came home with lot's of things to keep me busy for quite a while. Trying my hand at wreaths, and painting. Don't know how well the painting will go I usually draw stickmen so this is a challenge.
tomorrow is Ryan's birthday, I called again yesterday and that is now the 3rd time I have left a message that has not been responded to. Sounds like Dianne, maybe just nobody wants to talk with me. At least I have Jaimee, her and Sam came after work and stayed over night. Real surprise because they are working. They will just leave early and get to work for 8am. They visit so often now it is a real treat. We all get along great and watch movies, play games or just talk. The time flies when they are here. They are coming back tonight after work to stay again. Jaimee's house is still in a mess since her water line froze and broke a pipe. So they stay here or at Sam's mum's place.
Last I heard Ben (3) is just learning to skate. Ryan would like to see him play hockey hopefully next year. Matthew is just growing and smiling all the time. His Christening is coming up next month.
He won't be able to wear the family dress, as he has gotten to big for it. The dress has been passed down many generations in our family. Both my children wore it, I wore it, my mum wore it and her mother. It is still in very good shape, and passes around for other extended family as well.
Went to Michael's yesterday with Brad, we had a great time there looking for ideas.
I came home with lot's of things to keep me busy for quite a while. Trying my hand at wreaths, and painting. Don't know how well the painting will go I usually draw stickmen so this is a challenge.
tomorrow is Ryan's birthday, I called again yesterday and that is now the 3rd time I have left a message that has not been responded to. Sounds like Dianne, maybe just nobody wants to talk with me. At least I have Jaimee, her and Sam came after work and stayed over night. Real surprise because they are working. They will just leave early and get to work for 8am. They visit so often now it is a real treat. We all get along great and watch movies, play games or just talk. The time flies when they are here. They are coming back tonight after work to stay again. Jaimee's house is still in a mess since her water line froze and broke a pipe. So they stay here or at Sam's mum's place.
Last I heard Ben (3) is just learning to skate. Ryan would like to see him play hockey hopefully next year. Matthew is just growing and smiling all the time. His Christening is coming up next month.
He won't be able to wear the family dress, as he has gotten to big for it. The dress has been passed down many generations in our family. Both my children wore it, I wore it, my mum wore it and her mother. It is still in very good shape, and passes around for other extended family as well.
Saturday, 18 January 2014
annette's blog
Hey nothing too exciting here. Brad is my husband so you will hear about him. I have two children, Ryan 31 and Jaimee 25. I live with Brad and my 2 cats "Vista & Amigo" You will meet them later. I have 2 grandsons whom you will meet a lot. I think they are my favourites.
I love to listen to the news CNN and CTV, prefer CNN. Gotta love Anderson Cooper.
I have brothers, and a sister. Both parents are still with me. we all live close by each other now that I moved from Kitchener. I love to read, knitting is OUT! Won't touch magazines in doctors office, way to many germs there.
So now you know pretty much about me "live in a box with a pool"
Jan. 18/14
Today Brad & I are heading to Peterborough. I am looking into a new hobby I will let you know what I find and if I like it. It is Sat. so Brad is home today. Got a message from Valerie yesterday that Mattey will be baptized in Feb. He is such a happy little fellow. He always I s grinning and will give you the biggest smile. Will check in later to see how I make out at Michael's. Mum still in hospital till the 29th.
Jan. 18/14
Today Brad & I are heading to Peterborough. I am looking into a new hobby I will let you know what I find and if I like it. It is Sat. so Brad is home today. Got a message from Valerie yesterday that Mattey will be baptized in Feb. He is such a happy little fellow. He always I s grinning and will give you the biggest smile. Will check in later to see how I make out at Michael's. Mum still in hospital till the 29th.
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