Well it has been a few days since writing.  I am still very miffed with that new doctor.
Was also disappointed with my sister Patti's response.  She called to ask how it went, so I told her, and yet at the end was just silence this really pissed me off. I felt her silence scream at me as if she too felt the same way as this doctor.  I wonder how she would  feel if I told her he also mentioned she does not need disability and 2 workers helping  her out.
I really want to talk to my dad about it but Patti will find out and say I was complaining to him and that I shouldn't do that. Only because Patti will hear about it from Dad.  Doug (my  brother) is having some good days but more bad days.  He has finished his Chemo and Radiation, now they will measure the cancer to see about his surgery.  He is eating better since they gave him something to coat his throat to get food down.
I am feeling kinda sorry for myself I guess. Time to shake  it off.  I just HATE when people say they know how you feel and they couldn't possible  know the crap that keeps going on inside of me.
Even Brad can't figure me out, they think they do but they don't.  That is why I felt the way I did a couple of months ago. When I was totally out of it. It felt really good, I had no worries, no one yammering at me and just no cares, till I woke back up.  No it feels like reality sinks back in.
Don't hear from Diane much anymore, which maybe a good thing.  Have been communicating with Malle again. I really miss her since we moved from Kitchener.
Today I had 200.00 each ticket to go see Les Mis in Toronto. It is my favourite and the kids got us this for Christmas.  The snow storm was so bad you couldn't go down the 401 hwy.  Brad had a friend at work Daniel and he took his Mother he called after seeing it and said they really enjoyed it and the seats were great. Well enough for Saturday I will get back to my hockey game  and hope the Leafs can take tonight.